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PLAYER: Era
INVITED BY: Pel
CONTACT: spacewitchery|#9221 plurk|discord

CHARACTER NAME: Loki
AGE: between 1-2k years old
FANDOM: MCU/Disney+
CANON POINT: end of season 1 (D+ show)

ELEVATOR PITCH: Recently, Loki learned a lot of things. About himself, about his need for a "glorious purpose", about loving without being rewarded for it. He's learned about consequences, foreseen and not so much. He gained a few things, tried to turn himself around, did what he thought was the right thing (for once in his life), and then lost those things he gained. Namely the people he loves. It fucking sucks and he's not pleased about it.

For the last several centuries Loki has been doing whatever Loki wants, and screw the consequences. More or less. More: He's done a lot of things in the name of sowing chaos and striving to gain his father's respect in his elder brother's shadow. Complicated by being adopted and not being told about it until he found out on his own. Further complicated by being the God of Lies, certain that he has a glorious purpose beyond just being a crown prince, and an essentially futile attempt at Less: He's a narcissist and a megalomaniac, and in recovery over both of those things.

Healing is not linear.

He is driven by wanting to be told he's good enough, he's smart enough, and gosh darn it people like him. Being told, however, is not enough; he'd have to believe it, and being a giant liar himself and thus knowing and believing that everyone else is capable of lying to him at nearly any moment means that isn't always likely to happen. That is the deep internal reasoning, and the doubt that he is any of those things gnaws at him and causes him to lash out. Loki's got layers, and much like an onion that has started to rot on a kitchen countertop, not all of them are great.

Despite all his momentum forward, he's still chaotic. He's still without the relatively new support system he had in place for when shit went awry, and shit did go awry. He's more interested in causing trouble than outright harming others, so at least there's that.

He is in love with someone who more or less rejected him, very recently, or at least rejected his stance when it came towards something she'd wanted for possibly longer than he's been alive. He wants her to be okay; he'll be frustrated at not being in a position to do anything about it.

He has one good friend. He just forgot who Loki is. It's fine, everything's... fine.
VAMPIRE ABILITIES: Daywalker, Long Fangs, and Blood Memories

AVOIDED TOPICS: Sexual assault and child abuse. I can deal with either but would rather have them described in vague terms than directly.