[ He shifts his body fully towards her a moment after, having said nothing else, just breathing into the dark. He doesn't know how to explain how unsettled he feels by the knowing that he is not the person who woke up in this world; that somewhere exists a version of himself that did not, could not, experience Thedas and its various small miracles.
It seems strange and unfair that he should be allowed to love and be loved in a way that feels certain in the midst of a war, while some other version of him experiences a war without any sort of certainty. Torn away from Sylvie by his own decisions, amongst unfamiliar persons wearing familiar faces, likely behind enemy lines.
At least he knew some of that already.
Loki closes his eyes and keeps breathing. Holds those memories in one hand. In the other are the memories he's gained since arriving in Thedas. Alexandrie in the carriage, the first time he gazed upon the view of Kirkwall from the lift, Astarion in Wycome, the fireworks during the tourney. Abby's face reflected in the water outside of Antiva City.
He snorts a soft laugh. ]
Gods. What a terrible life to be living. Should I be glad I'm only aware of it in dreams?
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It seems strange and unfair that he should be allowed to love and be loved in a way that feels certain in the midst of a war, while some other version of him experiences a war without any sort of certainty. Torn away from Sylvie by his own decisions, amongst unfamiliar persons wearing familiar faces, likely behind enemy lines.
At least he knew some of that already.
Loki closes his eyes and keeps breathing. Holds those memories in one hand. In the other are the memories he's gained since arriving in Thedas. Alexandrie in the carriage, the first time he gazed upon the view of Kirkwall from the lift, Astarion in Wycome, the fireworks during the tourney. Abby's face reflected in the water outside of Antiva City.
He snorts a soft laugh. ]
Gods. What a terrible life to be living. Should I be glad I'm only aware of it in dreams?